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I am Hasta the hater.

aku benci mendengar keluhan teman setiap pagi "gue kalo telat makan, jadi mual"
I hear that every day!

aku benci mengorbankan pulsaku banyak sekali hari ini untuk urusan teman.
gue juga pernah jadi leader dalam sebuah produksi, dan untuk orang-orang diluar kelompok, gue ga akan membiarkan mereka keluar duit sepeser pun saat sedang membantu produksi gue.

aku baru ngobrol sama kakak dan kita membicarakan teman-teman yang suka pamer sesuatu yang kita sedang nggak punya dan kita butuhkan. kita tau mereka ngga sadar melakukannya...mereka tidak bermaksud untuk pamer. tapi untungnya aku dan kakak bukan tipe teman yang seperti itu. dan aku juga untungnya punya temen (walau sedikit namun berharga) yang tidak seperti itu. Aku jadi mengingat teman-temanku disini yang melakukan hal itu... dan aku jadi merasa benci.

harusnya selama beberapa hari aku nggak harus keluar uang makan di kampus karena menurutku harusnya aku dibayarin. bukankah aku datang ke kampus hanya untuk ngurusin urusan ornag yang harusnya membayar konsumsiku itu?

aku benci seorang teman baik karena cemberut dan BT padaku siang ini. Aku tau kamu nggak mau menemani orang yang nggak kamu kenal,,but please, yang minta tolong sama kamu itu bukan aku tapi teman kita yang lain. yang sangat kau sayang sampai kau tersenyum tulus saat untuk kedua kalinya ku ulangi nama si peminta tolong. aku hanya perantara yang terhimpit.

aku benci temanku saat ia ngobrol panjang lebar sementara aku sedang sangat depresi. dadaku sesak dan aku tidak bisa menangis. aku jadi mengumpat pada diri sendiri karena setiap teman-temanku lagi stress aku akan sangat simpati, empati, mendengarkan, memberi kekuatan,,,, kau boleh bilang aku orang yang berlebihan.

aku benci temanku yang selalu mengeluh tentang pacarnya. kenapa ga langsung putusin aja? I think that would be (even, maybe) also a relieeeefffff for me cause I won't hear u talkin about him again, loser.

Maybe I am the best friend u have ever had. I hear all your shits, keep all your secrets, I still admit and love your quality even though among all of your good fellas, I know the most, that you're a BITCH.

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aku benci mengorbankan pulsaku banyak sekali hari ini untuk urusan teman."

Maka jangan pernah anda lakukan lagi ya :)

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