Forever Aozora

Sunday Didn't sleep well. So tired after two weeks of hardcore life then at 4 AM already awaken up because my Bude Riek was packing back home to Malang. Woke up and slept back with pain in my hips. 11:30 at Mumos watching Icha teaching hiphop class, then we drove to Permata Senayan and the hardcooore hiphop class with Kak Adhyt si raja tega. Latihan sama Kak Adhyt itu selalu capenya luar biasa, sampe bikin mens lagi. Parah! All along the road we talked and talked... Icha's bf didn't join. we talked about much things, from her worry of having to wait until she reaches an old age just to succeed in dance - to my view in the concept of time, a concept our original ancestors didn't touch. Back from Interlude we hit Mumos again coz she had a class to teach. And then the next days I got sick sick sick. On Monday I decided to off from work, but instead of resting at home, I went to have a business meeting. I got a job to be a magazine editor. Not a big magazine, it was a...

Sorry I skipped my report of the 7th practice. The night before the D Day was like.. the choreographer didn't came and no body had good strong intention to practice, I guess, except me and Billy, yes, the underdogs. Miss Inu and her crews killed their asses off. They worked really hard, and she spared some little time to take a look at our practice. She asked us to dance twice then she said "Okay, good." I wasn't satisfied at all. I know we were not good, hehehe. But it was a very nice of her sparing her time. And then the D Day happened. I got kicked on my face by accident hahahaha that was okay. We were still that Frienemies, like the title of the piece. The hiphop team was doing greeeaaaaattt!!! They re-run 3 times. Crazy. We shooted two times, and I wished it would be three times as well. The Frienemies team went home after our scene shooted but I stayed until all finished, sat and had a chitchat with Icha, Inu and Andara at Oenpao. Andara said it was good but she...

Arrived at 6:45 at Gigi Art Of Dance, there was just Billy and the hiphop team. Miss Inu's choreography to California King Bed was great, eventhough I hate the song ;) I took my time practicing with the bag. Like I said on my previous post, I gotta stick that part harder on my brain and body, I did. I practiced, and practiced, and practiced. And in office, that bag keeps lingering on my shoulder down my hip. People asked why I kept wearing that bag as if I was outdoor. Hey men, they don't know, I was making a good relationship with that bag. Honestly, at the office I already could feel the nervous feeling everytime thought about rehearsal crossed my mind. But I was like "Everything is gonna be alright. I can do it, I memorize all the moves." An hour before office hour ended, I took a paper and I wrote the plot of the dance, just to remind my self. At break time I practiced the canon with the bag. I was so tense, but that's okay. You know what? It worths, I did...

I came right on time but Miss Andara wasn't there at first and I had a fast smoke + talk with Icha down at Oenpao. She told me what they were talking about last night. It was just like 10 minutes, really fast, and then Andara came. We started the practice. Billy was there, but Ursa wasn't. Damn, she is my partner in a part. It went quite well except the newly improved combo of the bag moves. Gotta stick it harder on my brain and body. It's okay, it's gonna be great. I mean I'm gonna kill it. What I want to say is... Hey Miss, thank you for being so hard on me. You shout at me, stressing me out, but you still trust me. You know what, all of this shit will pay me off with the gold of faith. I have a mountain of faith. That is how I afford my dreams.

Can't believe it's only the fourth practice we have attended and I already feel so tense. I came earlier, 4: 45 PM while we decided to practice from 5 to 8 PM, but it was delayed until 5:30 PM but I practiced by my self first like usual. While Miss Andara was teaching Pop Class, outside the studio I was repeating some moves over and over again, on the sofa students of technique class were peeking at me and what the H who cares, I need to convince my self that I memorize all the moves. Then everyone started coming except Billy. Miss Andara added new moves using shoulder bags. It was not so easy but I kept up with it, well, after several repetitions.

Dear blog, happy Sunday. Yesterday was the third practice of Miss Andara's IDF project. I was doing quite awful. Because there are too many things in my head. I should shut off my mind's talk. Miss Andara said I think too much therefore my body didn't speak. I swear I'll do better day by day, start from today at 6 PM. When I was packing ready to go home after practice, she shouted from afar to me, asking me to gain more confidence. I was so ready to cry. Gonna do much better! Imma trust my self much higher!

So last week what I have done was practicing the intermediate hiphop class choreo, no, not Gigi's , it was Interlude Intermediate Hiphop class. It was a pure dog dare. If you wanna learn hiphop there, you should start from Introduction class, then Beginner 1, Beginner 2, but you know whaaatt..... I succed the dare to jump and fit in the Intermediate class. I don't even have basic skill of hiphop that's what I'm talkin about, but I made it OMG!! The choreo was into Locking technique, and there are "drop hard" parts that I hurt my legs no matter I wear knee brace or not. Icha taught me few times, and then she went to Bali. Five days vacation. So I just practiced it under her assistance for 3 days, Sunday night right after the dare was made, Tuesday -- skipping Contemporary class, and the last was yesterday, Monday morning just before we hit the studio.

I woke up this morning and all my anxiety yesterday felt like a dream. Miss Andara is going to take five of her students to help her in her dance piece for IDF. I want to believe, I don't want to believe. Audition, to help such a great - well experienced choreographer like her, and she is auditioning beginners like us. Yes, I'm going for that audition, and yes I want to be in that bad. Will it be? I'm asking all of the people who read this to pray for me :)

So many fun things keep happening in my life this year, especially on the weekends. One Saturday in January, which I posted a lil..in the title Swag Sat, I was home all day, parents went out since morning and from the moment I woke up till the end of the day, I danced. Choreographing, exactly. I sharpened my "Skin" piece and was sooo moved by Ian Eastwood's piece to "Fall For Your Type" and I made one too... hahaha. I really didn't go out at all . Choreographing to this piece, I found out how lack of hiphop I am :( Ugh.. sad. I always move like in contemporary dance. But that night was swaaag... Mom recorded my pieces, there are 3 pieces: Skin, Fall For Your Type, and Twice. That night I slept beautifully, peacefully, feeling like... is it real? Ahahahah

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