Forever Aozora

So I've moved to Rempoa, I live beside my poor aunt. She has money, but she has poor relationship with her family. I, myself, respect his husband (rest in peace) who was a very hardworker, a nice person with leadership skill and stayed in the "Indonesian most wanted consultant" status until the rest of his life. I have lived with her family for like 4 months in my first days of college. Even though he wasn't talkative and didn't have friendly impression but he cared about me so much. I could say he took care about me much better than my aunt. Mom sent money from Malang to my aunt for me, I don't know how much. She trusted aunt to manage it daily for me and she gave me Rp10.000 daily and it was like... wow man, I didn't have lunch. Yes, it's true. Rp10.000 was enough to go to campus and back home again. Only for the transportation but I didn't complain, didn't talk about it at all. I guess Uncle noticed that it was far from enough and he often g...

How come, I have stopped consistently write about my dreams right after I wake up like I used to be? Ah, I should start that routine again. Last night I found out my dream still took place in my old house in Malang. Still. There was a scene I was closing the curtain. And I dreamed Miss Andara asked me to join a team and start practicing yaaahahahaha "Sayang, malam ini jam delapan bisa nggak?"  "Iya bisa Miss, kan jam 9 Marong masih available. Kalo latihannya baru mulai jam 9, nah si Marong udh ga bisa jemput" Dan tempat latihannya itu di belakang Sarinah Thamrin. I'm pretty sure I'll dance her choreography again someday. Well, sebuah hubungan yang dibangun dengan baik pasti berlanjut, entah bagaimana caranya. She is so herself, she never try to please anyone, and I am always my self, I never try to fit in anyone's circle because I believe If we fit, we fit. If not, then it's just not for us. I'm currently very happy to have students. I need th...

to have people who are willing to dance your choreography is an unbeatable feeling I had never felt so alive until I see these girls  learn hard to feel  what's my body wants to say thank you, universe

Hari ini hari Minggu. Setelah pekan Indonesia Menari. Semalam kan aku tidur cukup awal, jam setengah 10 gitu. Terbangun karena ada sesosok wajah lucu di pintu, berdiri dengan sumringah seperti anak kecil: my aunty! Aku langsung nanya, dengan keadaan antara tidur dan sadar. "Bun, kalau mimpi mens itu artinya apa ya?" "Ya mau dapet mens!" Ah gak seru banget jawabannya... Trus aku juga melanjutkan cerita mimpiku "Aku mimpi mancal sepeda capeek banget kita bertiga, aku, bunda, sama Lian jalan-jalan sampe Pujon. Tapi yang mancal cuma aku, bunda sama Lian jalan kaki. Kan cape'an mancal kan bun daripada jalan? Jadi Bunda yang ngasih arahan gitu 'kanan kei... kiri kiri' " "Ah kau ini mimpinya banyak amat!" "Ya jadi Bunda mau ngajak kita nongkrong di Tamani cafe gitu bun" Trus aku juga inget mimpi sembunyi2an sama cewek serem gitu di kamar mandi tua gaya belanda yang besar, warna-warna pastel gading. Bangun, makan nasi dengan sup kem...