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Tanggal 18 November tahun 2013 jam 11:55, 5 menit sebelum jam 12! So I still can call it "todaaaayy"

Today I woke up feeling absolutely weak, no energy at all due to lack of sleep and hours of dancing on Sunday. I started this morning very well, actually.

 

Enjoying black coffee while continue reading Carlos Castaneda's "Second Ring of Power". Damn, honestly, this series of Carlos Castaneda's journey has got me addicted. To say that I'm addicted maybe is exaggerating, since my reading speed FOR THIS BOOK is very slow, like I consciously postpone it in order to avoid getting so addicted hahahah! This author is very phenomenal, he's the New Age father, published his books on 1970, the sparks still splashing all over the place until now, even when the author has died. The book I am reading is the fifth book of the series.

This afternoon, it rained hard but only for minutes, then the sky became so bright and nice, then it went cloudy again...I like this season, and I want to dance everyday, everywhere, so I did.


Dancing just for the sake of dancing is not that easy... I did not play any song, I wanted the weather itself to be the stimulant. It's not about making beautiful shapes or doing difficult poses. I just want to TRAIN my body to respond. It took quite a long time until finally I can "feel". The first minutes of dancing was an awkward trial to be open to the sun, wind, to the mood that is "no certain mood". Can you move to that? 

I'm sick of thinking of dancing, for God's sake, just dance and free yourself from your own judgement; see what I mean? I recorded it with my ipad and when I watched I judged, automatically. "You look awkward" "What kind of move is that?" "Ridiculous" and so on. But even if I looked ridiculous, ridiculous dancing is better than beautiful dancing-but-just-in-your-mind.

Love,
Kei


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