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inbalance dream

it's 2:25 AM now. I woke up like.. 30 minutes ago because of my sister's alarm that in my dream was visualized as the speech of Ms.Inu saying "Lagi! lagi! lagi! lagi!" Here's what I dreamed:
I was tired, and I was bringing a postman bag, and two file holders. It was evening. I saw CFC booth at the front wall of a small, old mall. I stopped to eat. But the waiter, you know, he put the spoon (for me) from the dirty floor!! Fuck! I said "How could you do that to a customer? Change the spoon!" He took another spoon, but still from the floor. So many spoons on the dirty floor a few inches from his dirty shoes. Also, the price was highly expensive. Man, whatthe.. I said "I am not eating here!" got up with my post man bag and left the file holders. The waiter stood still behind his booth. I came back and took them. I also grabbed my money from his hand and I grinned like a monster, like "Ha! I also get my money back!" I walked around the mall to have another meal but the mall really turned me down.. it was cold, spooky, old.. dark. I just felt like "I have to leave." Out of the mall, I already wore another outfit. I was all black. Black boots, black skinny jeans, and a cool black military-style jacket. It was afternoon like 4 PM and maybe I was in India.


and I saw a gutter in the street near where I stood. The gutter was covered with its steel coverage, unlike the picture above. Maybe like this:





but it was very black, or a very dark greenish, and looking wet. I did look very slippery and even there was a board there saying "Don't stand on here. Your helper is not available in the moment." I walked there, stood on it and very quickly fell. Then an ojek driver ran and helped me and he said something.. which means "See the board! Oh man, I was about to go!"

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