hari kemarin, hari ini (PART II)

Miss Selvi is always friendly. After congratulating me, she also asked where the wedding took place. Shortly, she asked some caring questions before she ended the call. I felt so uneasy, unfocus of course. My eyes wandered everywhere, like a hipnotized person hahaha even few people around me looked at me as if they noticed something wrong. SAM TING WONG!

Arrived at Boxmart, I looked confused in front of the shelves and the cashier man stared at me. WTF. I took a Nescafe Original from the fridge and sat alone, facing a girl talking with her friend. She kept eating GOOD TIME Cookies, looking so relaxed in her loose jacket. Waiting for Dina, I opened the book I brought from home: "Getting Things Done", this is Uncle (R.I.P) Iwan Ail's book, now my sister's but she just leaves it there, never read it so I took it. Opened the paper I wrote (answering the book) about what I want to have/experience. I also felt useless doing that answering. The big screen TV also distracted me much. Oh Em Gee. not good. not good. I felt like a zombiiiieee, or maybe a cave man. Then I heard that friendly voice calling my name, but not in high tone like she used to sound. Dina came. She looked fine with black eyeshadow. The rest is her common-wears: cardigan, t-shirt, sneakers, glasses. She commented on my silver bag. She didn't comment on my eyeshadow and bracelet. Haaa not important!

It was 17:00 we didn't start with friendly starting topics.. straight to "What happened with you?" She told me what happened, showed me Blackberry Messages between her and Cakti. I took no big fuss. I straight saying that I NEED HER. This project desperately needs her and if communicating with the director is too annoying for her, let's just communicate with me about all administration and even technical stuffs. My heart hurts. Just now.

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