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heya blog,
how are you? I woke up at 5:35 AM feeling stressed.. nervous because I hadn't prepared lesson plans for today's classes; but I had to leave very early to meet Mr.Taslim at 9 (actually the appointment was at 10. Nine was my nervousa-reaction). I consciously forgot my dream because I felt like 'oh, no time for a report' and left my stomach growling hungrily for hours. I was thinking.. whattado? whattado? quick,quick. I printed my report and my writing assignment, took a bath, and walked out to eat chicken porridge alone. Ate there. This time I made the chef used spoon instead of his dirty fingers to put the chicken and all to my porridge! You know what? I didn't finish it, I just ate half portion. I was stressed. Back home, I made a tea instead of coffee - was afraid of getting ulcer attack again. Waited for dad to be ready, I played guitar.. some songs like 'No Sleep' (The Cardigans) and Don't Blame Your Daughter. Aahh.. made me feel better. In fact, the song suites me. I slept at 2:30 last night. no good. I also spent so much money on transportation. I went to Jason's house by cab. Cakti asked to meet there to do Part II of the writing assignment together.
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