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autistic_f0etus: hey sweetie. you ill?
autistic_f0etus: i have a very bad connection
keisha_xiaotian: that's okay, you're stealing  yes it has been 3 days, I thought just sleeping for a day would heal
autistic_f0etus: do you feel better?
keisha_xiaotian: no
autistic_f0etus: :((
keisha_xiaotian: the depression cycle has ended though, thank you
autistic_f0etus: i'm sorry to hear that
autistic_f0etus: GOOOOOD!
autistic_f0etus: >:D<
autistic_f0etus: wow! it's 8 already!
keisha_xiaotian: what?
autistic_f0etus: 20 o'clock
autistic_f0etus: i didn't realise
keisha_xiaotian: are you going? how is your band? I read one post in your status without knowing the meaning
autistic_f0etus: it means we have a... don't know the english word. a watercontainer, like in a kitchen
autistic_f0etus: because we don't have one in our fabulous place
keisha_xiaotian: OMG, I thought you played live somewhere
autistic_f0etus: i'm not going, but i should start to cook soon
autistic_f0etus: we will in august
keisha_xiaotian: yaay! august!
autistic_f0etus: wanna come?
keisha_xiaotian: I will dance in the recital too
keisha_xiaotian: august
autistic_f0etus: aaah yes
autistic_f0etus: cooool!
autistic_f0etus: make sure i can see the video!!!
keisha_xiaotian: I cancelled that idea, okay? I am shy
autistic_f0etus: even if you dont want to
autistic_f0etus: EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO!
autistic_f0etus: X-(
autistic_f0etus: ok, ok.. just show me pictures then
keisha_xiaotian: you know what? I just jumped back to bed and hide in the blanket imagining you see the video
autistic_f0etus: keish, you are too shy
autistic_f0etus: i'm sure it will be great!
autistic_f0etus: if i had a lot of money i would come to see it live
autistic_f0etus: wouldn't you be shy then?
keisha_xiaotian: you made me hide in the kitchen
autistic_f0etus: you're cute
autistic_f0etus: but totally unnecessary
autistic_f0etus: how long have we known each other?
autistic_f0etus: you don't need to be shy on my account
keisha_xiaotian: :D
autistic_f0etus: when we finally meet you will just have to do a private recital, deal?
keisha_xiaotian: :))
autistic_f0etus: behind closed doors and curtains
keisha_xiaotian: before I agree, let me tell my last dream
keisha_xiaotian: it had you, that woke me up before the alarm ring
autistic_f0etus: uh oh
keisha_xiaotian: but I'm going to make coffee first
autistic_f0etus: hehe, ok, then i will dry up the dishes quickly
keisha_xiaotian: are you there?
keisha_xiaotian: wait 10 seconds, I will find my cigarette
autistic_f0etus: ok
autistic_f0etus: coffee and cigarettes
autistic_f0etus: jim jarmusch
autistic_f0etus: i still didn't dry the dishes
autistic_f0etus: marlies started talking
autistic_f0etus: but she buggered of now
keisha_xiaotian: it was series of weird dreams I don't really remember (actually I remember  ALL) before I found my self in a scary carnival
autistic_f0etus: what kind of carnival?
keisha_xiaotian: the sky was so dark, it was evening without one strong, outstanding lighting (like in bazaar or circus)
keisha_xiaotian: people sell something, like bazaar
autistic_f0etus: i see
keisha_xiaotian: everyone wearing mask
autistic_f0etus: bad vibes
keisha_xiaotian: bad vibes?
keisha_xiaotian: what does it mean?
BUZZ!!!
autistic_f0etus: uhmm, heavy atmosphere
autistic_f0etus: and what were you doing there?
autistic_f0etus: just walking around?
keisha_xiaotian: I was lost. I don't know why I was there, suddenly
keisha_xiaotian: the masks they wear are scary, and beautiful though
autistic_f0etus: and at the beginning they weren't?
autistic_f0etus: oh wait, thise are two sentences
keisha_xiaotian: they wear masks. everyone. yes, sorry
autistic_f0etus: aah yes
autistic_f0etus: were you wearing a mask too?
keisha_xiaotian: they sell snake, baby crocodile,
keisha_xiaotian: no, I don't
autistic_f0etus: hmmm, tasty
keisha_xiaotian: scary paintings, the object in the painting could come alive
keisha_xiaotian: I was the only one visitor
keisha_xiaotian: no one else
autistic_f0etus: wow
autistic_f0etus: and were these merchants aware of that?
keisha_xiaotian: they offered it to me in... hyperbole way, you know, like, make those things close to me, almost touch me
autistic_f0etus: pushy
keisha_xiaotian: I would like to run but there was a thought if I ran, they will know I am scared and they like it
keisha_xiaotian: so I acted like I wasn't scared
keisha_xiaotian: I kept walking,
autistic_f0etus: good
autistic_f0etus: be strong
autistic_f0etus: then what?
keisha_xiaotian: I found you, you were a merchant too, you got a table too, like them, but your table was empty
keisha_xiaotian: you are just as tall as me
autistic_f0etus: wow, maybe i was sold out?
autistic_f0etus: i was a good merchant?
autistic_f0etus: or maybe i was selling something else?
keisha_xiaotian: yes, something else
keisha_xiaotian: you held a small board: "Free Hug"
autistic_f0etus: and was i wearing a mask too?
autistic_f0etus: hahaha! sounds like me
keisha_xiaotian: no, you didn't wear a mask
autistic_f0etus: i like myself in this dream
keisha_xiaotian: you didn't see me but I ran to you as fast as I could and I hugged you. stealing?
autistic_f0etus: stealing?
autistic_f0etus: they were for free
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: and then what happened?
autistic_f0etus: you woke up?
keisha_xiaotian: I closed my eyes and kept hugging you, I opened it once, scary merchants were still there looking at me, I opened it twice, they all gone, I saw a blurry sign autistic_f0etus is now online
keisha_xiaotian: I woke up and turned on my laptop
autistic_f0etus: but i wasnt there..
autistic_f0etus:
keisha_xiaotian: where?
autistic_f0etus: online?
keisha_xiaotian: I saw a YM sign
autistic_f0etus: in your dream right?
keisha_xiaotian: yes
autistic_f0etus: so, we have the smae height?
keisha_xiaotian: yes
keisha_xiaotian: is it true? or not?
keisha_xiaotian: I am just 161 or 162 cm
autistic_f0etus: i'm 170
keisha_xiaotian:  no, then
autistic_f0etus: then the rest of your dream must be unreal too
keisha_xiaotian: aaa you made me scared
autistic_f0etus: just now?
keisha_xiaotian: yes
autistic_f0etus: i'm sorry, that was not my itention
keisha_xiaotian: I will keep believing it was you and not another merchant
autistic_f0etus: well yes, THAT was true
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: just the other merchants weren't
keisha_xiaotian: weren't what?
autistic_f0etus: true, real
autistic_f0etus: do you mind if i start cooking?
keisha_xiaotian: no, I will do my essays
autistic_f0etus: i will be back in about 20 minutes
keisha_xiaotian: okay
autistic_f0etus: aah ok
autistic_f0etus: i will leave you alone then
keisha_xiaotian: nooooooooooooooooooo
autistic_f0etus:  the i will not
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: ready, steady, cook!/write essays!
autistic_f0etus: x
autistic_f0etus: i made a mountain of food
keisha_xiaotian:
keisha_xiaotian: accident?
autistic_f0etus: yes
keisha_xiaotian:  you always
keisha_xiaotian: share!
keisha_xiaotian: who is there?
autistic_f0etus: you are
keisha_xiaotian: hnggh,, who is physically there?
autistic_f0etus: me
autistic_f0etus: lately i'm always alone
keisha_xiaotian: I thought you started living with Marlies?
autistic_f0etus: in july
keisha_xiaotian: I like to live alone or being alone in this house. you don't?
autistic_f0etus: i do
autistic_f0etus: but when you're alone for a whole day it starts to get lone'some
keisha_xiaotian: yes yes I know..
keisha_xiaotian: consequences
autistic_f0etus: but i'm not unhappy
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: what are you writing?
keisha_xiaotian: essay for short story by Umar Kayam "A Hundred Fireflies in Manhattan"
keisha_xiaotian: and then essay for "M Family" short story
autistic_f0etus: interesting?
keisha_xiaotian: both, especially the Manhattan Fireflies, it made me sad
keisha_xiaotian: if I am asked to watch 10 short films or 10 short stories in one day, I choose the second
autistic_f0etus: why?
keisha_xiaotian: I have enough scary and weird and tiring movies in my dream  no, not because of that
keisha_xiaotian: I don't know, I like writings
autistic_f0etus: because it's more personal?
keisha_xiaotian: writing let us create images in our imagination, movies lead the imagery
keisha_xiaotian: the character, scene, atmosphere, etc
autistic_f0etus: true
autistic_f0etus: there's less brain activity watching a movie than in your sleep!
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: it's true
keisha_xiaotian: you read that somewhere?
autistic_f0etus: heard it on the radio
keisha_xiaotian: I heard it from Nindi, but she said TV
autistic_f0etus: it was scientific research
autistic_f0etus: the mountain is diminishing
keisha_xiaotian: yaaay
autistic_f0etus: rapidly!
keisha_xiaotian: what is it?
autistic_f0etus: i'm half way
autistic_f0etus: vegetable omelet with rice
keisha_xiaotian:
keisha_xiaotian: lately I can't finish even a half portion of meals
autistic_f0etus: you should eat well!
autistic_f0etus: you will be more resistant to disease
keisha_xiaotian: I'm not on diet, it's the vertigo, Wan, it makes me dizzy all the time
autistic_f0etus: heights?
keisha_xiaotian: no
autistic_f0etus: vertigo is heights right?
keisha_xiaotian: not just that. it's a feeling like you're spinning, or, things around you spin
autistic_f0etus: aah i see
autistic_f0etus: hitchcock confused me
autistic_f0etus: i guess
keisha_xiaotian: yes he did, really
autistic_f0etus: ...getting full
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: and i just added about 10 new friends on facebook in one minute or something!
autistic_f0etus: starting to get over the idea that people should add ME instead of the otehr way around
keisha_xiaotian: they sent the request?
autistic_f0etus: it used to be like that
autistic_f0etus: now I sent requests
keisha_xiaotian: hahaha
keisha_xiaotian: stop it, unless they are really interesting -- for a long time
autistic_f0etus: i added 3 concert venues
autistic_f0etus: and the rest girls i havent seen for ages
keisha_xiaotian: but you know them
autistic_f0etus: pffft, 4 eggs, an onion, a tomatoe, half a courgette, cheese and a whole lot of rice
autistic_f0etus: i do
autistic_f0etus: of course!
autistic_f0etus: i will not add anyone i don't know
autistic_f0etus: (unless they request me, you know my policy)
keisha_xiaotian: 4 eggs, an onion, a tomatoe, half a courgette, cheese and a whole lot of rice --> what is this?
autistic_f0etus: what i almost ate
autistic_f0etus: 4 more bites
keisha_xiaotian:
keisha_xiaotian: 4 eggs
keisha_xiaotian: too much!
autistic_f0etus: i had 12 left
autistic_f0etus: don't want them to go bad
autistic_f0etus: i rarely eat egg
keisha_xiaotian: okay
keisha_xiaotian: make a cake, Wan, to finish those eggs
autistic_f0etus: dont have an oven
keisha_xiaotian: just pan... pan!
autistic_f0etus: marlies will bring one
autistic_f0etus: a pancake?
keisha_xiaotian: I don't have oven too
keisha_xiaotian: thick pancake
keisha_xiaotian: thick and tall
keisha_xiaotian: with butter spread and chocolate spread on it
autistic_f0etus: ssssht!
autistic_f0etus: i'm about to explode!
keisha_xiaotian: sorry sorry
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: would be a good desert though
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: but not today!
keisha_xiaotian: Wan, check my latest pancake
keisha_xiaotian: http://www.facebook.com/kennieta.theressa#!/photo.php?pid=31161657&id=1126821495
keisha_xiaotian: I made it thin, unlike normal pancake
autistic_f0etus: normal pancakes here are thin
autistic_f0etus: not like american pancakes
autistic_f0etus: the link doesnt work
keisha_xiaotian: okaaay
keisha_xiaotian: I will tag you, okay?
autistic_f0etus: in a pancake?
autistic_f0etus: ok
keisha_xiaotian: yes, in a pancake
autistic_f0etus: coffee time for me now
keisha_xiaotian: ok
autistic_f0etus: looks lovely!
keisha_xiaotian:  thank you
autistic_f0etus: still looks a bit thick for our standards actually
keisha_xiaotian: really? it's very thin
autistic_f0etus: well, bo, maybe it's the same
keisha_xiaotian: there were three pancakes on a plate
keisha_xiaotian: large, yes, but thin
autistic_f0etus: i see
autistic_f0etus: i've noticed that
keisha_xiaotian: it was for my sister. she has to eat everything I cook
autistic_f0etus: what kind of fruit is that?
keisha_xiaotian: it's chocolate chip.. cereal
autistic_f0etus: i seeeee
autistic_f0etus: and they are also in between the pancakes?
keisha_xiaotian: yes  
autistic_f0etus: maybe that's why it still looks a bit thick
autistic_f0etus: but it looks very yummy!
autistic_f0etus: i think i will leave the tag there..
keisha_xiaotian: would you like it with banana cuts?
autistic_f0etus: yes!
autistic_f0etus: if i would come visit tomorrow, what would you like to make me?
keisha_xiaotian: you made me nervous
autistic_f0etus: hmm, maybe it's a bit too late for coffee
autistic_f0etus: well, keisha, i have a surprise for you....
keisha_xiaotian: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
autistic_f0etus: i'm in indonesia right now!
autistic_f0etus: padang!
keisha_xiaotian: aaaaaaaaaaaa
keisha_xiaotian: noooooooooooooooooooooooooo
keisha_xiaotian: ahahahahah padang is too far
autistic_f0etus: i know, i'm just travelling around a bit
autistic_f0etus: i think i will go see you next week
autistic_f0etus: i think i will arrive on tuesday, is that ok for you?
keisha_xiaotian: Wannes. is this practice?
autistic_f0etus: practice?
autistic_f0etus: why are you so nervous?
autistic_f0etus: you know me!
keisha_xiaotian: okay, sorry
keisha_xiaotian: I don't know why
keisha_xiaotian: I wonder why
autistic_f0etus: i just wanted to surprise you
autistic_f0etus: keish? did you faint?
keisha_xiaotian: no
keisha_xiaotian: I will come there
autistic_f0etus: ok, i will stop teasing you then... i'm not in indonesia
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: i'm sorry i made you nervous!
keisha_xiaotian: I will come there to where you are
keisha_xiaotian: I have my family in my mind wherever I am here in Indonesia
autistic_f0etus: keisha??
keisha_xiaotian: they are scary thought and influence my decisions. I will be confused where I should put you to stay if you come here
keisha_xiaotian: I'm about to leave this house. I can't stand it anymore, I am saving money to leaaaveeeeee yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy
autistic_f0etus: why you're so nervous?
keisha_xiaotian: I have my family in my mind wherever I am here in Indonesia. they are scary thought and influence my decisions. I will be confused where I should put you to stay if you come here
autistic_f0etus: sorry about that
autistic_f0etus: the connection in indonesian internetcafes is so bad!
keisha_xiaotian: really?
keisha_xiaotian: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
autistic_f0etus: no no, i'm sorry
autistic_f0etus: it's just so cute that you are nervous
keisha_xiaotian:
autistic_f0etus: why are you so nervous?
autistic_f0etus: i wish i could see you blush
keisha_xiaotian: I will be less nervous if I come there
keisha_xiaotian: I was in your place, not you in my place
autistic_f0etus: why not?
autistic_f0etus: i'd like to meet your family and friends
keisha_xiaotian: why?
keisha_xiaotian: I don't want you to
autistic_f0etus: why not? i want to know your surroundings
keisha_xiaotian: you are special for me, I don't want to share
keisha_xiaotian: with them
autistic_f0etus: you dont need to share
keisha_xiaotian: still. no.
keisha_xiaotian: later, maybe
autistic_f0etus: so, if i want to go to indonesia you wouldn't invite me in your house? you're going to make me sleep in a hotel?
autistic_f0etus:
keisha_xiaotian: I explained that to you.
keisha_xiaotian: If I live alone, I will invite you to stay in my place
autistic_f0etus: i see
autistic_f0etus: that's no problem
autistic_f0etus: but i'm sure you shouldn't have to be ashamed of your family
keisha_xiaotian: I am not
keisha_xiaotian: it's not like that
autistic_f0etus: because you don't want to share?
keisha_xiaotian: I don't know how to explain to you, but you are so special like, an escape destination. out of reality. why would I gather you with them?
autistic_f0etus: aaah, i see now
autistic_f0etus: now i am flattered
keisha_xiaotian: sorry, I can do nothing about it
autistic_f0etus: no, i understand
keisha_xiaotian: you don't know how it feels to be me. I even have to act like I'm healthy in front of them, Wannes. family.
autistic_f0etus: but i really hope we can meet soon
keisha_xiaotian: I need you.
autistic_f0etus: not in 10 years
autistic_f0etus: i'm always here for you
autistic_f0etus: i'm gonna go to bed soon and i will try to get up at 6 to start writing!
keisha_xiaotian: good
keisha_xiaotian: have a nice dream
autistic_f0etus: i hope i will dream of you for once!
autistic_f0etus: because it's unfair
keisha_xiaotian: I am dream, how can you dream of me?
autistic_f0etus: can't i dream of a dream?
keisha_xiaotian: try!
keisha_xiaotian: use magic spell for beginner
keisha_xiaotian: let's stop this, you should go to bed soon.
autistic_f0etus: or i could print a picture of you and put it under my pillow
autistic_f0etus:
keisha_xiaotian: still, magic spell
keisha_xiaotian: ahahaha... stop.
autistic_f0etus: i don't know how to do magic
autistic_f0etus: it helps if i think of you before i go to sleep
keisha_xiaotian: tonight I am a fever fairytale
autistic_f0etus: maybe you should sleep too?
autistic_f0etus: or do you like the fairytale?
keisha_xiaotian: I should, but I am still writing
autistic_f0etus: deadline tomorrow?
keisha_xiaotian: I like fairytale, Alice only. I don't like Cinderella, Snow White, etc
keisha_xiaotian: yes, deadline is today
keisha_xiaotian: today 3 P.M
autistic_f0etus: you don't like red riding hood?
keisha_xiaotian: with grandma?
autistic_f0etus: ouch
autistic_f0etus: yeah, and the wolve
autistic_f0etus: wolf
keisha_xiaotian: I like it. but still, Alice.
keisha_xiaotian: Alice scared me
autistic_f0etus: or the kids getting caught by the witch
autistic_f0etus: hansel and gretel?
keisha_xiaotian: that is too scary. I don't like it
keisha_xiaotian: toooooo scary
autistic_f0etus: that's why i like them..
keisha_xiaotian: Alice is scary, but the fear is hidden
keisha_xiaotian: behind beautiful things
autistic_f0etus: that's true
keisha_xiaotian: sleep!
keisha_xiaotian: now
autistic_f0etus: i'm trying to see a comment on my status message in facebook, but it won't open..
keisha_xiaotian: Quinten Ingelaere
je hebt het dus wel werkelijk opgehangen...
keisha_xiaotian: 12 minutes ago
autistic_f0etus: hmm, i dont understand
keisha_xiaotian: that is a comment for your latest status
keisha_xiaotian: from your friend
autistic_f0etus: yeah, i just opened it now
autistic_f0etus: and i replied, 'you may explain that to me'
keisha_xiaotian: hehehe, so you really don't understand?
autistic_f0etus: i don't
autistic_f0etus: it says: wannes shits with the door open.
keisha_xiaotian: OMG
keisha_xiaotian: your friend
autistic_f0etus: and he says 'so you really did hang it up...'
keisha_xiaotian: okay, go to bed, you have to wake up at 6
autistic_f0etus: ok, i will go! good luck with your essay!
keisha_xiaotian:
keisha_xiaotian: why this emoticon can't look prettier
keisha_xiaotian: huh!
keisha_xiaotian: byeee,, have a nice dream
keisha_xiaotian: wake up at 6
autistic_f0etus: kisses!
autistic_f0etus: get well soon!
keisha_xiaotian: thank you
autistic_f0etus: i'll try!
autistic_f0etus: thank you too
keisha_xiaotian: sign out
autistic_f0etus: yes mother...
keisha_xiaotian: :))
autistic_f0etus: ;)
autistic_f0etus has signed out. (19/05/2010 3:45)

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