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jika hilang waktu
aku 'kan mengaku

jika hilang cerita
masih bisa kubaca

namun jika hilangku sendiri,
terperi ku mencari!

Kenapa ya saya berselimut di sarang seperti burung yang malas terbang begini?
awalnya kurasa aku penat sama kampus yang penuh dengan elektron negatif
tapi kok aku keterusan penatnya?
bahkan saat kurasa kampus sudah "mendingin" kok aku ikutan dingin namun seperti gunung es yang mau meletus. gunung es dengan magma mendidih di dalamnya.

aku jadi merasa bukan keisha.
saat ini aku lebih pantas dinamai "pecundang' daripada "keisha".
karena keisha sama sekali tidak seperti aku ini.
keisha tidak pernah menyaman-nyamankan dirinya di comfort zone
keisha tidak lari dari apapun.

saya ini sedang jadi siapa ya


mungkin saya kesepian tapi nggak menyadarinya ya
mungkin saya tetep kesepian walaupun menyaman-nyamankan diri di comfort zone dengan comfort people di sekitar saya

sungguh sepertinya masalah ada pada saya sendiri
tapi apa masalah itu bahkan saya belum tahu

gimana ini ya
saya kok jadi burung yang males terbang tapi gak mau dipotong sayapnya..hahahah tolong dong

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