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penyesalan...mungkin..

mungkin aku sedang sangat depresi, mungkin aku hanya sedang bingung dan sedih. Dan mungkin aku mengatasnamakan depresi itu untuk memaklumi diriku yang jadi jahat or nyebelin. Dan sekarang aku jadi merasa perlu minta maaf pada orang-orang yang udah jadi korban depresiku itu. Parahnya, orang-orang itu selalu...selalu keluargaku. Kenapa bukan temen2ku aja? Setidaknya keluargaku mencintaiku lebih tulus daripada mereka. Kenapa bukan orang2 lain saja? Dari waktu ke waktu, kenapa harus keluargaku? Dan mungkin ini memang kisah hidup yang harus dilewati...sehingga aku nggak perlu nyesel atas kisah ini, karena gimanapun toh kisah ini adl bagian dari kisah hidupku.

Forgive me sister, mom, dad...please.

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