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HeYh...WaddUp?

2Day... bad dReam abOut teSt maSuk IKJ (mungkin karena begitu pengennya aku masuk situ hwehehe), woke up at 8, had breakfast, washed my clothes,took bath, watched poor TV programs..no one's home but me n my sleeping mom. Felt so bored, went alone to here : GeLoX Box hwehehe...spent all ma money coz I got nuthin to do. Yezterday Andro sms-ed me, said that he was going to JakaRta and actually he wanted to hang out wid me b4 he left but I wazn't home. so sad. I think it would be nice to hang out wid him no matter what. ToDay ShiRo sms-ed me, said that she invite me to her bday party tomorrow at KDS, she told me to ask Andro too. Hghh...he went away. Andro sms-ed me, said that he misses me. Sweet. Wanna say I miss him too but no pulsa left. I dun know what I am feelin. About my self, about my family, about LuKa, and about Andro. I felt Andro as my close friend. Sometimes I really want him to come to my home. I won't, I won't talk about my loneliness or the emptiness that I feel almost everyday that it could make me cry wid no reason. I would talk about...i dunno, I would talk about what he wanted to be talked. His fantasy, his gurls, his fettish, anything... I feel so sorry if I use him to escape from my loneliness. But I think I don't. Hopefully..

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